A few years ago, my dad had a seizure and was diagnosed with cancer. He had a tumor in his brain bigger than a large egg. They removed it and he went through chemotherapy and radiation. He was fine.
At the beginning of last year, he got an MRI and they saw tiny tumors and swelling in his brain. They’re in a place where they can’t operate. He went through chemo and some radiation.
He was forgetting words, having small seizures, slowly getting worse. I visited him in October. (He lives in North Carolina.) We went out, he seemed like he was doing very well.
My brother visited during his winter break. He told my sister and I to come down.
They thought my dad had a heart attack in the early morning of the 28th. Turns out he had a bunch of blood clots in his lungs. The doctors gave him two weeks.
We flew down that night.
We slept at the hospital. A doctor took us to a room, and asked us what we wanted to do. Did we want him to be comfortable?
She said there was no reason for him to stay in the hospital.
We brought him home.
A hospice nurse came by that night to evaluate him, that was when we realized that no doctor had actually come by to look at him. They didn’t take another chest X-ray before we left.
Maybe a little too much info, but he hadn’t gone to the bathroom in over a week. We didn’t notice, because we would leave the room every time the nurses came in to change him. They let him leave with a 100°F fever.
It’s been over a week since we’ve been home.
He’s talking a little, moving his arms and starting to move his legs. He watches tv and pays attention.
He’s doing much better.
We’ll be going back home on Tuesday.

For the past two weeks, I’ve been in Brasil, visiting most of my family.
One of my cousins graduated from medical school, and officially because a doctor! There were many parties.
Also, I was starting to plan the wedding! Yes, it will be in Brasil, and it’s on July 21, 2012. I am so excited.

Every time I come back from there, I get very lonely and sometimes a little depressed. There, we’re surrounded by people, we have breakfast, lunch and dinner together every day. You are rarely by yourself. Here, you’re alone most of the time. Alone in your house, when you’re eating, in your car, at work. It sucks.
On the plus side, I’ve been baking! I made brownies a couple days ago, and blueberry muffins last night.
I’m also going dress shopping! next Thursday. Super excited about that…!xo

The heat outside has kept me from turning on the oven for the past few weeks, but it has cooled down considerably, so I’ve started baking again.

Yesterday, I made strawberry shortcake cupcakes. This weekend, I’ll be making macaroons and rainbow cupcakes.

I can clean for hours and hours, and still feel like my apartment is a huge mess. I refuse to accept that it will never be clean.

My car has been slowly(or…not so slowly) falling apart. It’ll break one little thing, another, then a big thing.

Today, my car died while I was stopped at a red light. I was embarrassed, I started crying, it was awful.

This morning, Jeremy called me to tell me that our neighbor found a belt from my car in the driveway. I thought I could make it home. Turns out I couldn’t.

I waited an hour for AAA, then finally went home a couple hours after the breakdown.

I haven’t had much of it lately. Like….very, very little. My hours at work were cut for about a month. I had less than 20 scheduled hours at the store, and my boss had nothing for me to do at the office.

Fortunately, things are starting to get a little better. The boss just came back from a jewelry show, and brought back a ton of jewelry for me to work on. And the biggest project is that we’re starting to use printed labels, so it’s my job to re-tag everything. 

I’m also trying to put together a list of recipes for my sister, for when she stays over.

Baking is also on my to-do list. It’s just been so hot, that I don’t even want to turn on the oven.

My apartment and my car.

I have way too many things, and no place to put everything. I keep going through my dresser and my closet, but I don’t really have a lot of clothes to give away.

I just need some cabinets that hide all of my crap.

Yep.

(Also, I’m so tired today….I almost fell asleep at work.)

I wish I had turned out to be someone very different. I have very few friends, I am significantly overweight, and I’m stuck at a job that is going nowhere.

Jeremy went to get something out of his car, and BAM! a large group of tiny ants is surrounding our door. So I vacuum them up. Jeremy’s out getting caulking for our door and some ant/bug repellent stuff. I also cleaned the floor around them with some bleach stuff my mom gave me. They’re not coming back in, but now that I’m looking at the door, I’ve realized that I haven’t cleaned it since we moved in. Oops. It’s really dirty.

There’s a big lightening/thunder storm coming our way, I’m gonna go watch.